When I don’t feel like going onwards, God is always paving a way to pull me back on the right track.
Up until now, I can sense a spiritual battle within me. It will be very abnormal to a christian who doesn’t have one. Well, nobody is exempted.
I was overwhelmed of lots of school activities I was involved to, decisions that had to be crucially made and personal issues that laid me behind. Because I’m a graduating student, pressure is all over from the inside out of the campus. I’m a member of our school paper The Paulinian, an ambassador of the Paulinian Ambassadors of Peace, president of our college, science club officer and at the same time, a student-aid-scholar of the university. If I am to think all of these affiliations all at once, maybe I’ll be so distressed. Not only physically I got tired but also mentally and emotionally. These gave me emptiness inside, carrying a big load on my head that I felt like I was doing nothing for God.
Just by singing or being part of the worship team, I know it is not enough. Really not worth it to say that I am serving the Lord. I must’ve read and meditated the word of God. Instead, I became an idle christian. I allowed myself to be immersed with what the world demands me. I became so busy with the world and laxed with God. What a shame it was to me.
Though things such as those happened, God always turns things around. Last August 2011, a group of Indonesians, most of which are students came to visit Iloilo. The primary reason they went here was to share Jesus all over the campuses of the city. Three of them namely Yola, Richard and Agus were in-charged of SPUI. God is supernaturally amazing and great. Those students were introduced to me and I to them. I believed it was no accident at all that we met our ways. I am so grateful and at the same time so thankful to God. Encouragement and realizations prevailed that I must re-awake myself from my idleness.
- September 6
- , 2011
