When I don’t feel like going onwards, God is always paving a way to pull me back on the right track.
Up until now, I can sense a spiritual battle within me. It will be very abnormal to a christian who doesn’t have one. Well, nobody is exempted.
I was overwhelmed of lots of school activities I was involved to, decisions that had to be crucially made and personal issues that laid me behind. Because I’m a graduating student, pressure is all over from the inside out of the campus. I’m a member of our school paper The Paulinian, an ambassador of the Paulinian Ambassadors of Peace, president of our college, science club officer and at the same time, a student-aid-scholar of the university. If I am to think all of these affiliations all at once, maybe I’ll be so distressed. Not only physically I got tired but also mentally and emotionally. These gave me emptiness inside, carrying a big load on my head that I felt like I was doing nothing for God.
Just by singing or being part of the worship team, I know it is not enough. Really not worth it to say that I am serving the Lord. I must’ve read and meditated the word of God. Instead, I became an idle christian. I allowed myself to be immersed with what the world demands me. I became so busy with the world and laxed with God. What a shame it was to me.
Though things such as those happened, God always turns things around. Last August 2011, a group of Indonesians, most of which are students came to visit Iloilo. The primary reason they went here was to share Jesus all over the campuses of the city. Three of them namely Yola, Richard and Agus were in-charged of SPUI. God is supernaturally amazing and great. Those students were introduced to me and I to them. I believed it was no accident at all that we met our ways. I am so grateful and at the same time so thankful to God. Encouragement and realizations prevailed that I must re-awake myself from my idleness.
There’s no place like home.
Indeed. I’ve been sleeping in another person’s home in not less than a month ‘till now and I’m so missing my home. Don’t get me wrong. I sleep in my teacher’s (girl) home.
I miss my not-so-cottony-soft bed and pillow, disorganized room, dusty floor and ceiling, and clanging doors. The most that I missed is my family. Nanay, Tatay, Lanie and Noriel. We seldom have serious conversations and laughing sessions but still I missed the outbursting of joy during joke times, tv-drama marathon, and in doing household chores.
For the past few weeks, I have sleepless nights. This means I always sleep at the hour when the sun prepares to rise. So stressful and this makes me want to sleep and eat more. My companions were a cup of creamy and tasty coffee, chichacorn, and junk foods.
Though I have sleepless nights, I’ve learned a lot in doing research. I can be an expert then! hahah, there’s no way. I’m still a novice and needs lot of experiences in doing so.
Now, I end. I’ll make sleepless nights a sleep-ful day.
God bless us all. :)
- September 5
- , 2011
Going to church, singing praises until voice lifted to the highest pitch will not make one a God chaser.
There were a few times (maybe already a million times) that news all around the world broke the hope of everybody. “Jesus is coming! C’mon! Be married, purchase all the things you haven’t gotten yet!” Some really got married and didn’t have the second thought of backing-up their accounts. Most spent their money in different luxurious ways.
Did Jesus really come? I know right? He didn’t… but he is coming.
Amidts all these, are we all ready for his coming?
I’ve known someone who enjoys earning money. I, too, wanted to have lots of money. But this person also goes to church every sunday, offers sums of money. He’s also doing good in raising his children. He somehow thought that these good works can save him. He has in this mind that doing these things can already satisfy God.
God chaser doesn’t mean that we just go to church to lift our hands on high, cry whenever we cast our prayers to him, listen to the sermon and go back home.
Becoming a God chaser means a lot to God.
If you are asked of your priority list, who comes first? Boyfriend? Family? Classmates? Or God?
God must be the first in our lives. Without him, we can do nothing.
I usually hear people say that believing in God is just a denial stage when we are out of answers. It is not! God has his supernatual ways that we naturals cannot measure or even understand.
To chase God is believing Him that he can do everything, greater than what we can even imagine, sharing Him to others who do not have the glimpse of God’s goodness yet in there lives or to those who already have the taste of his favor, walking in His ways by not compromising and following the world, and serving Him wholeheartedly. For without faith, it is impossible to please God.
For if you chase God, his overflowing abundance will keep on chasing you.
- September 5
- , 2011
Have you ever imagined yourself living without a house?
Most of us would prefer to live in a luxurious house with everything inside: as soft as a cotton sofa, well-polished wares, functioning airconditioning units, cool-breezed electricfans, huge bedroom, colored textiles, organized shelves, and the like. We feel so secured because we have a house to go to at the end of the day.
Have you ever thought that some people do not have what they call a “house”?
Defined in The New Oxford Dictionary of English, a house is a building for human habitation, especially one that is lived in by a family or small group of people and consists of ground floor and one or more upper storeys. This definition sometimes violates the so-called house others have. A house for those near the sea, bridges or crowded areas are just like puzzled and mixed up light materials such as wood, scraps, unused vehicle wheels, etc. Even though they live in such a house, they have a “home”.
It’s a pity that most of us judge people living in the squatters’ area. We judge them because of their dirty physical environment and smelly surrounding. However we see them in their present situation, there is still something that makes them keep on living. That possibly is their “home”.
A home is not a building, a thing and absolutely not an abstract. A home is simply defined the “magnet that keeps pulling you wherever your route is.” At the end of the day, you are excited to “go home” because your “family” is waiting for you. In the middle of distress and pressure, you think of your own home, not of your own house, unless your house is on fire or at the middle of drowning. That is a home.
For those we think they do not have a home because they do not have a house, they are sometimes called as blessed. What’s the worth of a big house if there’s no one living inside. But for them, even though their houses are not strongly built, they live as a family and eat and breathe as a family.
No matter how big or small our houses are, we must always think that we must have a home to consider every day of our lives.
- July 25
- , 2010
Spotted by the yellow-orange sun rays, green and dewy leaves sparked awesomely as the beauty of God’s creation covered the Earth.
One sunny morning, as I remembered, these eye-catching plants caught my attention. Full of drips of water on top, they invited me as though entering a great feast. It was a feast that made me so grateful of what I have as a person.
Like these leaves, sometimes my life seems to dry overshadowed by my weaknesses and failures. Sometimes I lose hope that maybe one day, I might not have a glimpse of a good feature in my life. Like these leaves, they are most of the time laid in a death field with no rain and with full-blast above average temperature.
- July 25
- , 2010
Nature is real.
- July 25
- , 2010
The cat is lying on a mat (where’s the mat?). it’s gone.
- July 25
- , 2010
Ants-ants-ants.
- July 25
- , 2010
